I missed the sunrise this morning
Waking early at 530
Reading the news in bed
Finally dressing at 630
Layer after layer
It would be cold
On the shore of the sound
My wife woke as I was about to leave and asked me to get her a cup of coffee
The night before I’d rubbed her feet
The day before I learned she needed
to tuck her sweater into her jeans
Because of the weight she’d lost
Before that I had helped her into the car
on the way to the hospital on Christmas Day
When I approached the door to our house
holding the cup in my hand
a few sugars on top of the lid
nestled in a napkin
The smile on her face
was more beautiful than any sunrise
That I have witnessed or could imagine.
And if my hopes and dreams are realized
I will see her lips turn into a smile
and her love for me shine like the rays of a rising sun
for many years to come.
On the Anniversary of a Father Gone
Jerry Rutberg – June 12th 1921 – April 2nd 1965
My father loved;
A rigours hike up to a mountains top, a well told tale and the sound of waterfalls at a trailside stop.
He love his family, his brothers and sisters, my siblings, my mother and me. He was kind and fair and for all he believed in dignity.
He loved the shining light of curiosity in a child’s eye and to light that fire within his children and students with the question “why”.
Why is the sky blue, why do the heavens shake when the winds rage on and the thunder quakes. Why does the world turn and what would happen if?
As I grow older I feel compelled to consider those gifts that fathers put away for their heirs. The birthright, those pieces of the family tradition and wealth that carry on the tribes way, so coveted they must be assigned.
I think of all the gifts my father gave to me, and as our family thins, that I can pass on to you my children and your children.
My father was a fine example of a man who’s short life touched so many. His photographs, writings, our memories and learnings are testaments and his legacy.
So I bequeath to you those treasures he gave to me.
Love nature, take pleasure in the sights and sounds around you. Embrace your family and hold them close. Listen well to others, and find truth in what they say, treat them with dignity and fight for their rights. Pass on what you have learned to those around you and never stop asking and finding answers to the questions that begin with why.
Poetry
The words
falling like tears
finding their way to
nestle together on a page
can salve our wounds,
Strangers scanning their order and sentiment
can make up their own meaning
and be awed by our intuition
or stare blankly at the page
of our inscrutable scribblings
We can stand in the light,
centering our selves
and repeat them out loud and
relive the journey
they made
from our soul to the pages
we hold before us.
My Morning Ride
The trees are
weeping white blossoms
large birds
wave their wings
taking flight
my heartbeat surges
as my legs churn
to summit the hills
along the path
the chill wind
whips by me
nothing quite compares
to the feeling
as I descend
A Face That Always Makes My Bride Smile
A Boy Tending His Flowers
Life – New Beginnings
Life is filled with new beginnings
each sunset and sunrise
tick of the clock
childhood
the terrible teens
dawn of recognition in another’s eyes
world shrinking around just the two you
love sweet love
children of your own
the world shrinks again
to frame a halo around each of your children’s heads
each new beginning fraught with the potential of a scraped knee
or worse their disappointment
New beginnings, some missed steps as they grow but ample time to begin again.
Another round of new beginnings
we get to share as grandparents
Life is filled with new beginnings
New directions for you to choose in your journey.
There are an infinite number of new beginnings
one can have in one lifetime
The only limits we face are in the number of endings.
Fording the River
I need this like a ……
Wounded Photographer
Papa I’ve Wandered – 1975
Papa oh Papa I’ve wandered
Far from the mountains where the eagles would fly
Far from the forests where the winds rushed and died
I remember the rivers carried yesterday’s rain
and the sounds of the waterfall calling my name
But how where your hands shaped
as they reached for mine
To catch me as I stumbled or to ease an incline
how were your arms held
did their swing match your stride
You were tall, I remember
with knapsack well strapped
on your green corduroy jacket
and your Irish tweed hat
I remember your eyes as they peered down at me
with a gleam and a twinkle
when a tall tale you’d tell
I’d sit hunched on a bolder as you’d weave your spell
There were trips to the city
that you loved so well
head back and laughing at the Village art fair
Awestruck and mocking as we looked at their wares
the fountain was offering a drink to the sky
you were comfortable their and with you so was I
But Papa, I’ve wandered and lost your in form
So I sit and write memories
in this way I mourn
for the days in the mountains where the eagles would fly
for the times in the city where the fountains met sky
for the moments we spent, that came to an end
for the years filled with days, hours and moments
not spent together, since then
Grateful
Grateful
Kneeling, I sit off centered
Drops of sweat
Fall from my face
And pool in a v
At the neck of my shirt
I slowly extend then sweep
My left leg along the floor
Towards my body
Across my center
Then fold it at the knee
And place it on
The wrong side of my right leg